long time no see!

name pon long time no see.so ni kedua kalinye post blog utk 2014,but i'm a first timer for posting using phone apps..kekeke..anyways,i don't wanna talk about anything related with crush..BUT!!this is related with my sad daily life.what a burdensome!actually,ade la satu minah poyo ni menyusahkan..bukan satu la..ade several girls..they "stress" about new sect.complain complain & complain!well,aq pon nk komplen la..korg annoying sangat!aq taktau apehal diorg ni.aq sekelas kate takde kwn.majority dy kenal org dlm class so ape masalahnye aq pon taktau.klau aq yg memberontak tu takpe la..aq turun class..dy memberontak taktau alasan ape..dah la tu..nk tukar pon nk nyusahkan org lain.nemo stress pon dy bertahan je duduk sect 14?ko baru naik satu level da gedik nk mampos..nak tukar pegi la rengek kat mak bapak ko.diorg elok je kat kg ko tu.aq ni lain.ade mak satu2nye..susah sikit masok class baru,nak give up.menyedihkan perangai.pandai sound org lain bile kene batang hidung bukan main lemau ko ye?!!so jauh2kan la diri dr org2 mcm ni..

p/s: sorry,sbenarnye yg ni da save utk tulis bnde lain.tp main selit2 je..hehe

true self

met you by an incident..

know you by surroundings..

lie to you to protect myself..

it made both of us hurt inside..

loosing our true identity..

to please others..

i try to stay with you..

but for the 1st time..

i see the different you..

this time knowing you by understanding..

we're same..

from the beginning..

you let my real me..

that i shouldn't show to others..

not even my family know..

although they said they knew me..

i never show the real me on anyone..

but you made me..

that's why i must be hypocrite..

to protect people like you..

from a person like me..

well..

what so real about me?

i'm so cruel that no one can soften my heart..

letting people suffer just because of my 'none of MY business' thing..

i've lost my humanity for a long time ago..

maybe i don't have any from the beginning..

you never knew what kind of person i am..

holding back with everything that you got..

i hate you that could do it..

stalker

i didn't notice anything until i read it carefully..aah....it's me..since i stalked you..i get it now..you hate me..you never think of me as anything..so..i will forget anything..i will stop everything 'bout you from now on..i will erase my memories 'bout you..so i can live peacefully..farewell..i will stop stalking you..since you hate stalker,that is me,so much..things that left for me is nothing in the end..because everything 'bout me is full of you..i shouldn't hear it..i shouldn't see it..your feelings towards her..your tears for her..since you look so sad,i didn't want you suffer..at least you can share it with me..like that song,i shouldn't let everything if it's you..
Without Words:
I shouldn't have done that.
I should have just ignored it.
Like something I couldn't see.
Like something I can’t see.
I shouldn't have looked at you at all.
I should have ran away.
I should have acted like I didn't hear it.
Like something I couldn't hear.
Like something I can't hear.
I shouldn't have listened to love at all.
Without words you let me know love.
Without words you gave me love.
You made me even hold your breath but you ran away like this.
Without words love leaves me.
Without a word love tosses me away.
What should I say next ?My closed lips were surprised on their own.
Coming without any words.
Why does it hurt so much ?
Why does it hurt continuously ?
Except for the fact that I can’t see you anymore.
And that you are not here any more.
Otherwise it is the same as before.
Without a word you let me know love.
Without a word you gave me love.
You made me even hold of your breath but you ran away like this.
Without a word love leaves me.
Without a word love tosses me away.
What should I say next ?
My closed lips were surprised on their own.
Without a word tears fall.
Without a word my heart breaks down.
Without a word I wait for love.
Without a word I hurt because of love.
I zone out, I become a fool because I cry looking at the sky.
Without a word farewell finds me.
Without a word the end comes to me.
I think my heart was surprised to send you away without any preparation.
It came without a word.
Without a word it comes and leaves.
Like the fever before, maybe all I need to do it hurt for a while.
Because in the end, only scars are left

mr. rara

he's soft..
as if he is a girl..
lucky me..
he's not..
he's so warm..
i can feel it..
no!he's crying!!
what should i do?
he's having problems..
i often ask him..
are you ok?
he smiled..
but..
what's up with it?
his smile..
is his tears..
i want to protect him..
i want to be a shoulder for him..
i want to be his friend..
only for him..
i want to be everything he want..
everything he need..
i really hope..
i can change him..
only him..

section or class

mintak maaf la..tp citer dy kat sini,aq nk tukar section SETIAP sem..bosan la jumpe muke same je..harap kptm faham..aq tak suke sem kali ni..kje kumpln,org lain je buat..aq tau2 bende tu da siap..bile tnye je,masing2 bukan reti nk jwb..pastu ckp tak buat kje la..nk salahkn org blek,ckp member lain tanak bg kerjasama bagai..tanak bg pendapat la..bile tnye tak jwb la..ko sndiri da ajukan idea,ko agihkn jelah kje2nye..org ..oops!aq akn buatla!bile aq tnye nk kne buat ape,pastu masing2 buat muke annoying..aq lg annoying ngan perangai korg tau tak?

situasi..errrr...

entah nape..aq rase pelik2 je ngan H..ermm..dy mcm moody je ble ngan aq..psal u.s tu ke?sorry..my mistakes..i really didn't know this could happen..seriously..i was like this old man should just die!!astaghfirullahalazim..sabar imah sabar..nanti kite bincang2 la..ok..da 1.30 pg..wanna finish my assignments as soon as i can..H..i'm sorry..i'm really sorry..i just...sorry,dearie..i didn't mean to do that..

Menangis dan ketawa.

sebab menangis:

• sedih
• tertekan
• hormon tidak stabil
• kecewa
• terlalu marah
• terharu
• gembira
• menyesal
• putus harapan
• kehilangan org yg tersayang

sebab ketawa:

• lepas tekanan
• gembira
• berasa lucu

ni aq punye sbb..klau org lain taktau la..

penantian yg menyusahkan

awk,sy da penat sangat nk tnggu awk..i'm really tired of waiting for you to reply me..waiting for every single thing that related to you..please..i wanna let everything go..i don't want to keep it..i wanna live happily..survive is the only thing i can do..i'm searching for my own happiness..each time when other people that trying their best to love me,it will reveal everything about you..it makes me feel disappointed with stupid me..well,i don't really care anything 'bout you actually..or maybe a little..or maybe a lot..naahh!!i don't know..actually,i want to know..why did you give and let me hope?you promised me..give me the spirit to win your heart..but why did you let me down after everything???!!!!i am your friend!!!you idiot!!!i saw you cry..i know your stories..i love you for 5 years,sh*t!!!i'm willing to do anything for you!!what do you want more!!???

seriously..i really hate you right now..but darn it!!i miss you..a lot..i want to get start over and stop me from love you..

andai kata..

aku masih setia..haha..kot..td kwn tgk blog ngan twitter dena bahrin..perghhh!!aku tahan perasaan je la jawabnye..andai kate Allah tak izinkan aku utk bersama org yg aku sayang sepenuh hati, maka aku redha dgn insan yg Allah tentukan utk aku..dalam seumur hidup ni..bnyak perkara yg aku risaukan..antarenye, aku risau kalau insan ditentukan utk aku sejak azali tak sempat nk tau yg aku ni wujud pon..haiishh..imah oi..cube la sedar diri sikit..aku perlu pikul tanggungjawab aku dulu..aku ade tanggungjawab lg penting..!!!haaiii hati,dengarlah seruan Allah..JANGAN DENGAR SERUAN LAIN...sy cume mampu tunggu awak je..kalau boleh sy perlukan awak utk bimbing sy..selebihnye sy tawakal dlm hal ni..sy bukan tak berusaha..cara baik sy buat..cara tak baik pon sy buat..(takde unsur lain ok!!just kacau dy pakai no phone org lain..ngan ade la citer2 kat certain2 org..) sy mengaku still ade sayang tu..tp sy kurangkan..sentap bile tgk cermin diri sendiri tak reti2 nak berubah!!

because both of you were friends..

i was actually surprised that you were her friend..my 1st impression was : i hate her..i don't know..it just came across like zuupp!! i hate you..that's all..i try to convince myself to have faith on you each time i feel irritate with you..-.,- i hope you too..understand me like i do..that's why i do what you asked me to this whole time..ok..nak solat..luah tu luah jugak..tp solat tak boleh la lupe,wok!

duit habis.

ok..title pon duit habiskan..tp ke mane duit tu pergi..tu persoalannye..mase dpt cek mara,duit habis kat lesen..kat aku ngan buncit tu sbb saket..hmm..aku gune utk ape je?belanje ibu makan..most of it tu je..makan..=.=" bnyak la aku makan kalau macam tu..haish..yela..aku mengaku aku salah..memang duit tu tak spend utk shopping mase dpt cek tu..aku memang tak shopping!aku beli kasut SATU je..sbb utk pegi class.menyesal pulak duit tu aku bagi org lain..==" kalau aku tau aku tak cukup makan,aku mesti da simpan..nk beli SEHELAI baju baru pon da tak boleh..blerrrggghhh!!tp takpe la..halalkan je la..jd sedekah..haha!padahal tanggungjawab aku tu..kihkih!hari ni aku puase ganti...hari AHAD..aku lupe esok hari isnin..pastu aku da terbeli nasi lebih..ok..ni klaka..hihi!

lately..ni yang jadi pada saya..

okay.. starting to do my homework..but last night got distracted by akmal wahid..haha!so suddenly he just app. my 'mom'..actually,i was the one who add him..:P haha!naughty me..i just want to make sure if he just app. people that i know..maybe to make me angry..or he just app. people besides me because he doesn't even care about me..haha..such a troublesome me..i don't know why this feelings are bothering me when i'm here..sejak balek kl..rase sayang tu tak kurang..makin bertambah ade la..-..- it's hard for me to say this but..i want to move on,akmal..i want to find a better man than you..like you said..i want that thing happen..tp kenape susah sngat aku nak lupekan kau?even after prayer..nk sebut name aiman jd akmal..heh!akmal..aku tau aku sayang kau..i mean smpai skarang..andai kate kau sebenarnye suke kat aku..ni andai kate je ok!aku terima kau seadanye kau..aku tak yakin mane2 lelaki biase yg boleh buat jantung aku terhenti 2 saat hanye dengan rase kedatangan kau..kau je yg boleh buat aku sesak nafas mcm nyawa aku kene rentap..haha!