Brokenhearted lady

Once,there was a lady trying her hardest to be best in her friends' hearts.but,they ignore her as she always make mistakes.well,she is a clumsy lady.they ignore her unless the time for her to pay the rental money together or when the lady have lots of money.she is really easy to get fooled by her friends.she always help them.but they always mad at her and ignore what she said.they said she is an annoying lady.

The lady notices that her friends change their attitudes towards her.she often keep silence because she doesn't want her friends to keep ignore her.but things remain the same.they purposely forget her.one of their friend fell sick.they went out without tell her or the sick friend.they treat her like a burden if they stay with her.so the lady gone mad.she go out to a mall without telling them where she wanna go.she leaves the mall as they arrive at the mall where she went.since then,the lady never want to trust anyone easily anymore.

menyoal hati

adekah kau merindu?
merindukan dia?
kenapa dia?
bagaimana kedua org tuamu pula?
adekah ruang utk mereka?
jikalau ade,berape besar ruang utk mereka?
lebih kecil dr utk si dia?
mengapa bukan mereka yg kau rindui tp dia?
bukankah Allah menjadikan kedua ibu bapamu yg melahirkan dirimu?
sifat tamak kau bisa memusnahkan segala yg kau bina.
sabar...
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pasti semua akn tercapai jika kau bersabar dan tabah.
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a little feeling from my heart

i get it.
that you're mad at me.
but i have apologize.
what is it that you want me to do?
all of you!
say it out loud!
i can't read your mind!
i can't understand you!
can't you see?
you're the one who said that friends is an important relationship to you.
but you're the one who break this relationship.
so why would i care about you anyway?
i trusted all of you more than my own sister!
but you always betray me.
and i get the blame.

oh,crush!

ok..kali ni baru pasal akmal.ok.first,akmal nk balek lebih kurang dlm 5 bulan lebih lg.tp sem lepas,i thought i have move on from getting involve with him la.tp sebelom check result,i stalk him for the what time,third or fourth time in that sem.punyela aq bangga dah tak up to date pasal dy sangat.skali!!nk blek thn kau!!haa..ko hado??!!!gugup aq.masalah cms hang buat otak aq pon hang.dpt result,meraung smpai kak ct blek dr indon,sepanjang tnggu kak ct blek aq stalk dy mcm nokharey!aq rase mcm hilang confidence,hilang iman aq skali.lepas tu Allah punye kuasa,aq solat blek.muhasabah diri.Alhamdulillah.jatuh tergeliat sikit je.azam aq 2014 aq ikhlaskan diri aq blek,sentiase bersangka baik,good vibes blek,aq suntikkan sikit2 dlm diri aq semula,mule ingat blek sbb aq kat sini.nape aq terima tesl.nape terbukak hati amek tesl.ingat blek sbb aq bwak diri kat kl ni.org2 yg aq sayang..org yang aq nk tebus blek silap mase spm dulu,aq dah start nk utk ubah attitude aq..persepsi aq..utk diri aq..

long time no see!

name pon long time no see.so ni kedua kalinye post blog utk 2014,but i'm a first timer for posting using phone apps..kekeke..anyways,i don't wanna talk about anything related with crush..BUT!!this is related with my sad daily life.what a burdensome!actually,ade la satu minah poyo ni menyusahkan..bukan satu la..ade several girls..they "stress" about new sect.complain complain & complain!well,aq pon nk komplen la..korg annoying sangat!aq taktau apehal diorg ni.aq sekelas kate takde kwn.majority dy kenal org dlm class so ape masalahnye aq pon taktau.klau aq yg memberontak tu takpe la..aq turun class..dy memberontak taktau alasan ape..dah la tu..nk tukar pon nk nyusahkan org lain.nemo stress pon dy bertahan je duduk sect 14?ko baru naik satu level da gedik nk mampos..nak tukar pegi la rengek kat mak bapak ko.diorg elok je kat kg ko tu.aq ni lain.ade mak satu2nye..susah sikit masok class baru,nak give up.menyedihkan perangai.pandai sound org lain bile kene batang hidung bukan main lemau ko ye?!!so jauh2kan la diri dr org2 mcm ni..

p/s: sorry,sbenarnye yg ni da save utk tulis bnde lain.tp main selit2 je..hehe

true self

met you by an incident..

know you by surroundings..

lie to you to protect myself..

it made both of us hurt inside..

loosing our true identity..

to please others..

i try to stay with you..

but for the 1st time..

i see the different you..

this time knowing you by understanding..

we're same..

from the beginning..

you let my real me..

that i shouldn't show to others..

not even my family know..

although they said they knew me..

i never show the real me on anyone..

but you made me..

that's why i must be hypocrite..

to protect people like you..

from a person like me..

well..

what so real about me?

i'm so cruel that no one can soften my heart..

letting people suffer just because of my 'none of MY business' thing..

i've lost my humanity for a long time ago..

maybe i don't have any from the beginning..

you never knew what kind of person i am..

holding back with everything that you got..

i hate you that could do it..

stalker

i didn't notice anything until i read it carefully..aah....it's me..since i stalked you..i get it now..you hate me..you never think of me as anything..so..i will forget anything..i will stop everything 'bout you from now on..i will erase my memories 'bout you..so i can live peacefully..farewell..i will stop stalking you..since you hate stalker,that is me,so much..things that left for me is nothing in the end..because everything 'bout me is full of you..i shouldn't hear it..i shouldn't see it..your feelings towards her..your tears for her..since you look so sad,i didn't want you suffer..at least you can share it with me..like that song,i shouldn't let everything if it's you..
Without Words:
I shouldn't have done that.
I should have just ignored it.
Like something I couldn't see.
Like something I can’t see.
I shouldn't have looked at you at all.
I should have ran away.
I should have acted like I didn't hear it.
Like something I couldn't hear.
Like something I can't hear.
I shouldn't have listened to love at all.
Without words you let me know love.
Without words you gave me love.
You made me even hold your breath but you ran away like this.
Without words love leaves me.
Without a word love tosses me away.
What should I say next ?My closed lips were surprised on their own.
Coming without any words.
Why does it hurt so much ?
Why does it hurt continuously ?
Except for the fact that I can’t see you anymore.
And that you are not here any more.
Otherwise it is the same as before.
Without a word you let me know love.
Without a word you gave me love.
You made me even hold of your breath but you ran away like this.
Without a word love leaves me.
Without a word love tosses me away.
What should I say next ?
My closed lips were surprised on their own.
Without a word tears fall.
Without a word my heart breaks down.
Without a word I wait for love.
Without a word I hurt because of love.
I zone out, I become a fool because I cry looking at the sky.
Without a word farewell finds me.
Without a word the end comes to me.
I think my heart was surprised to send you away without any preparation.
It came without a word.
Without a word it comes and leaves.
Like the fever before, maybe all I need to do it hurt for a while.
Because in the end, only scars are left