long time no see!

name pon long time no see.so ni kedua kalinye post blog utk 2014,but i'm a first timer for posting using phone apps..kekeke..anyways,i don't wanna talk about anything related with crush..BUT!!this is related with my sad daily life.what a burdensome!actually,ade la satu minah poyo ni menyusahkan..bukan satu la..ade several girls..they "stress" about new sect.complain complain & complain!well,aq pon nk komplen la..korg annoying sangat!aq taktau apehal diorg ni.aq sekelas kate takde kwn.majority dy kenal org dlm class so ape masalahnye aq pon taktau.klau aq yg memberontak tu takpe la..aq turun class..dy memberontak taktau alasan ape..dah la tu..nk tukar pon nk nyusahkan org lain.nemo stress pon dy bertahan je duduk sect 14?ko baru naik satu level da gedik nk mampos..nak tukar pegi la rengek kat mak bapak ko.diorg elok je kat kg ko tu.aq ni lain.ade mak satu2nye..susah sikit masok class baru,nak give up.menyedihkan perangai.pandai sound org lain bile kene batang hidung bukan main lemau ko ye?!!so jauh2kan la diri dr org2 mcm ni..

p/s: sorry,sbenarnye yg ni da save utk tulis bnde lain.tp main selit2 je..hehe

true self

met you by an incident..

know you by surroundings..

lie to you to protect myself..

it made both of us hurt inside..

loosing our true identity..

to please others..

i try to stay with you..

but for the 1st time..

i see the different you..

this time knowing you by understanding..

we're same..

from the beginning..

you let my real me..

that i shouldn't show to others..

not even my family know..

although they said they knew me..

i never show the real me on anyone..

but you made me..

that's why i must be hypocrite..

to protect people like you..

from a person like me..

well..

what so real about me?

i'm so cruel that no one can soften my heart..

letting people suffer just because of my 'none of MY business' thing..

i've lost my humanity for a long time ago..

maybe i don't have any from the beginning..

you never knew what kind of person i am..

holding back with everything that you got..

i hate you that could do it..

stalker

i didn't notice anything until i read it carefully..aah....it's me..since i stalked you..i get it now..you hate me..you never think of me as anything..so..i will forget anything..i will stop everything 'bout you from now on..i will erase my memories 'bout you..so i can live peacefully..farewell..i will stop stalking you..since you hate stalker,that is me,so much..things that left for me is nothing in the end..because everything 'bout me is full of you..i shouldn't hear it..i shouldn't see it..your feelings towards her..your tears for her..since you look so sad,i didn't want you suffer..at least you can share it with me..like that song,i shouldn't let everything if it's you..
Without Words:
I shouldn't have done that.
I should have just ignored it.
Like something I couldn't see.
Like something I can’t see.
I shouldn't have looked at you at all.
I should have ran away.
I should have acted like I didn't hear it.
Like something I couldn't hear.
Like something I can't hear.
I shouldn't have listened to love at all.
Without words you let me know love.
Without words you gave me love.
You made me even hold your breath but you ran away like this.
Without words love leaves me.
Without a word love tosses me away.
What should I say next ?My closed lips were surprised on their own.
Coming without any words.
Why does it hurt so much ?
Why does it hurt continuously ?
Except for the fact that I can’t see you anymore.
And that you are not here any more.
Otherwise it is the same as before.
Without a word you let me know love.
Without a word you gave me love.
You made me even hold of your breath but you ran away like this.
Without a word love leaves me.
Without a word love tosses me away.
What should I say next ?
My closed lips were surprised on their own.
Without a word tears fall.
Without a word my heart breaks down.
Without a word I wait for love.
Without a word I hurt because of love.
I zone out, I become a fool because I cry looking at the sky.
Without a word farewell finds me.
Without a word the end comes to me.
I think my heart was surprised to send you away without any preparation.
It came without a word.
Without a word it comes and leaves.
Like the fever before, maybe all I need to do it hurt for a while.
Because in the end, only scars are left

mr. rara

he's soft..
as if he is a girl..
lucky me..
he's not..
he's so warm..
i can feel it..
no!he's crying!!
what should i do?
he's having problems..
i often ask him..
are you ok?
he smiled..
but..
what's up with it?
his smile..
is his tears..
i want to protect him..
i want to be a shoulder for him..
i want to be his friend..
only for him..
i want to be everything he want..
everything he need..
i really hope..
i can change him..
only him..

section or class

mintak maaf la..tp citer dy kat sini,aq nk tukar section SETIAP sem..bosan la jumpe muke same je..harap kptm faham..aq tak suke sem kali ni..kje kumpln,org lain je buat..aq tau2 bende tu da siap..bile tnye je,masing2 bukan reti nk jwb..pastu ckp tak buat kje la..nk salahkn org blek,ckp member lain tanak bg kerjasama bagai..tanak bg pendapat la..bile tnye tak jwb la..ko sndiri da ajukan idea,ko agihkn jelah kje2nye..org ..oops!aq akn buatla!bile aq tnye nk kne buat ape,pastu masing2 buat muke annoying..aq lg annoying ngan perangai korg tau tak?

situasi..errrr...

entah nape..aq rase pelik2 je ngan H..ermm..dy mcm moody je ble ngan aq..psal u.s tu ke?sorry..my mistakes..i really didn't know this could happen..seriously..i was like this old man should just die!!astaghfirullahalazim..sabar imah sabar..nanti kite bincang2 la..ok..da 1.30 pg..wanna finish my assignments as soon as i can..H..i'm sorry..i'm really sorry..i just...sorry,dearie..i didn't mean to do that..

Menangis dan ketawa.

sebab menangis:

• sedih
• tertekan
• hormon tidak stabil
• kecewa
• terlalu marah
• terharu
• gembira
• menyesal
• putus harapan
• kehilangan org yg tersayang

sebab ketawa:

• lepas tekanan
• gembira
• berasa lucu

ni aq punye sbb..klau org lain taktau la..